Control will Rust your Dreams

Contour Lines 031

Aug 13, 2025

Hello leaders, readers, and casual observers,

Today’s message was inspired by my friend

‘s note on writing skills becoming rusty from writing nothing but LinkedIn posts for months, intersecting with an artist I’ve discovered recently, Mon Rovîa.

I didn’t initially plan to put anything out or update you on whats new in my life or with Cultivar today. It’s not that I didn’t want to, I did. I just didn’t know what to say.

I’ve mentioned it before, but I have a consistency problem when it comes to writing. That’s how I framed it before.

Lack of consistency is the symptom, not the underlying cause.

I have an issue with wanting to actually say something of value or interest to you as a reader. That is the underlying cause.

I’ve held consistency before on other platforms or in different periods of my life, but I’ve noticed that particularly in times of internal growth, my external consistency suffers in a broad sense.

I’d argue it’s a need to control things, and that might be the case.

But at it’s heart, I think its because when we are in a growth phase (we are always growing, the speed and angle is what we often call phases), things are uncertain.

We know where we were, and where we are heading, but often where we stand in the moment is unfamiliar because as we grow we relate to our people and surroundings in new ways. They may or may not grow with us.

It’s a good thing.

In the desire for certainty, don’t love any version of yourself too much, otherwise you’ll risk rusting and with it, your dreams turn to dust.

What I’m working on this week and next:

Maintaining flexibility in the type of content I put out so as to remain consistent.
Figuring out hosting lives on multiple platforms at once (I’ll be doing a test run on Friday morning, details will come out tomorrow).
Diving deeper into how I can discuss my core principles without talking at people.
Cultivating my perspective through coffee chats with awesome people such as yourself.

Here’s a picture of a ~~cat~~ bogling (iykyk) underneath a Star Wars quilt.